aye, it’s only a bug. Only. How would you like it if someone said that about you? But you are different, yes. You are a person, you know what you are, you think about things, you experience the world and yourself and others, you remember, you anticipate. Do bugs do these things? Do they immagine, hope, feel emotions? We do not rightly know. Yet, even so, is it not terrifying to contemplate that your heart, You, would kill something just because it was inconvenient for you?
“Oh look, it’s an ant on the counter.” *Smash*
Have you ever looked at those searching antenas in the moment before your finger comes down out of the sky in a flash and cuts off all that bug knew. Have you ever thought of how sudden and unexpected that ending was? Have you ever looked at your finger and realised that it has the power to separate things from this world forever? Have you ever considered and trembled at the thought of such a thing happening to you? The idea that suddenly, for no reason other than your existance slighty bothering someone, it might just be stoppped, eliminated, without a thought or care or pause or remembrance, without a moment even to realise it is happening. Have you ever looked at your heart and realised the darkness of that impulse within you.......I don’t like it - Smash! Have you ever considered what it might do? If you believed other things were bugs as well? Have you remembered, and shuddered, that it happens all the time? That people believe even people like themselves are only bugs.
To the bugs, we are like gods. Remember the Romans gods? Whose intrests and petty whims upturned the lives of humans below without their asking? How greatly do your petty whims upturn many little lives that do not even understand your existance. Is that your right? Are you a god? Over what? What in this world truely belongs to you? Perhaps it is our gift and right to herd the sheep, the beetles, the bushes of this earth. Even so, do we know where our will should stop? Over what it has precedence, and over what it does not? Do we have the grace to consider what is under us? Or do we act only upon our whims? And even if it is our right to do so......is it truely right? Is it good? Is it best? Is it, perhaps, only through giving up our right voluntarily that we become something more? More than an act of fate, a ‘force of nature’ if you will. Will we interact with, consider, what is under us? Do we recognise that there may be something over us, even as we are over the bugs? Will we pay attention to the interaction of what is above us when it reaches down into our lives?
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
ever so gratefull
ever so
for all who have loved
for all who have given
for all who have shared
for all who have listened
for all who have smiled
for all who have laughed
for all who have cared
for all who have shown me wonder and beauty and comfort and hope
for all who have made life so abundantly beautifull
I am gatefull
ever so gratefull
for all who have loved
for all who have given
for all who have shared
for all who have listened
for all who have smiled
for all who have laughed
for all who have cared
for all who have shown me wonder and beauty and comfort and hope
for all who have made life so abundantly beautifull
I am gatefull
ever so gratefull
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Stuffed
It seems to me that as a culture we are generally very bad at knowing what it is that we want when we feel that we want something. I wonder why this is.
Perhaps we introspect too little? Because of being busy? Because of being distracted by constact noise and immages? Because people who spend quiet time alone are considered boring and strange? Because somehow we don't know how to keep our own company and feel compelled to always be out with others in order to have a good time? Because we are afriad of discussing deep personal things, like inner desires, with these others we spend our time with? Who knows.
Or perhaps because we are constantly subjected to being told that we want things from commercials and other sales tactics. So that either we aren't used to coming up with the answer of what we want ourselves, having it always told us from the outside, or we are constantly having the feeling of want arroused so that we begin to deal with it almost subconciously so that we can get on with other things. Instead of pausing every time to determine whether the source of the want is within or coming from without, and analysing what exactly we are in want of, we have a set of automatic fullfillment responces which can be selected with little thought or energy.
Thus our lives become overstuffed with fillers while still remaining relatively empty. In fact, sometimes the things that do fullfill us get pushed away or disconnected from our lives just to make room for more stuffing.
Such quick-fix stuffings are frequently food of various kinds, or money, or stuff that one buys through un-premeditated shopping. And here we come to, what I think is, the reason why we see the 'inexplicable' despare and emptiness of people living in a land where even the homeless have more things than could be brought on a plane without an extra fee, where obesity is found even among (and possibly especially among) the poor classes, where there is such abundance of physical provision far beyond the basic needs for survival. It would seem that people are taught culturally to ignore their true desires and inner needs in favor of the misguided persuit of Stuffing.
Perhaps we introspect too little? Because of being busy? Because of being distracted by constact noise and immages? Because people who spend quiet time alone are considered boring and strange? Because somehow we don't know how to keep our own company and feel compelled to always be out with others in order to have a good time? Because we are afriad of discussing deep personal things, like inner desires, with these others we spend our time with? Who knows.
Or perhaps because we are constantly subjected to being told that we want things from commercials and other sales tactics. So that either we aren't used to coming up with the answer of what we want ourselves, having it always told us from the outside, or we are constantly having the feeling of want arroused so that we begin to deal with it almost subconciously so that we can get on with other things. Instead of pausing every time to determine whether the source of the want is within or coming from without, and analysing what exactly we are in want of, we have a set of automatic fullfillment responces which can be selected with little thought or energy.
Thus our lives become overstuffed with fillers while still remaining relatively empty. In fact, sometimes the things that do fullfill us get pushed away or disconnected from our lives just to make room for more stuffing.
Such quick-fix stuffings are frequently food of various kinds, or money, or stuff that one buys through un-premeditated shopping. And here we come to, what I think is, the reason why we see the 'inexplicable' despare and emptiness of people living in a land where even the homeless have more things than could be brought on a plane without an extra fee, where obesity is found even among (and possibly especially among) the poor classes, where there is such abundance of physical provision far beyond the basic needs for survival. It would seem that people are taught culturally to ignore their true desires and inner needs in favor of the misguided persuit of Stuffing.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Moneysworth
very wise saying No.4: the value is in the enjoyment and benefit, not in the quantity.
people are often befuddled by numbers or quantities into thinking that they need to get more in some physical ammount for the price they pay, when really they are cheating themselves.
Take Disneyland for example. The typical Disneyland experience usually encludes trying to do as many things as possible in the time that one has there so that you 'have gotten your money's worth' after paying for those expensive tickets. However, this approach usually makes people more stressed, more cranky, more prone to finding dissatisfaction in their experience, and much more tired and sore. It also probably distracts them from the details of their surroundings or the quality of the experience at hand, so that their sense of satisfaction comes not from the pleasant atmosphere, or the enjoyment of the rides and shows, or the sights and smells and tastes, but rather from being able to check so many things off the list.
• One can achieve the same feeling marking off a list of chores to do at home which costs nothing.
There is certainly a sense of satisfaction when one completes a number of things, but this is entirely a separate thing from the sense of satisfaction one is intended to experience from going to Disneyland. The music and landscaping are meant to create a pleasant atmosphere, one of both peace and joy. The rides are meant to bring up fond memories of movies and stories one loves, or to provide a thrill through speed and motions that one doesn't normally encounter. One is more likely to have a good time - a time that is enjoyable, uplifting, relaxing...in short an escape to a fantasy world, a retreat, if one is not fretting about how long things are taking or how many rides one has yet to check off the list. Why on earth would you pay to go be crabby stressed and resentfull?
People often approach situations in which they pay for something as though they are trying to get a toy out of a dog's mouth. There they are pulling and shaking and straining to get something back as the dog is clenching it's teeth and pulling and straining to keep it. In reality, you pay for something and it is given to you. Why strain as though you have to try and make something of it? Why not just recieve it? Why not focus on What, rather than How Much.
Take as another example: Eating Out. If you feel compelled to 'get your moneysworth' (yes I'm intentionally using it as one word) by eating every last scrap on your plate and having them bring extra bread too if it's not an additional charge, then you will end up feeling overstuffed and miserable, and furthermore that food will be contributing not so much to your health, but to your Unhealth. You have clearly not gotten a better value through eating too much. It is the enjoyment of the eating experience that makes the price worth it. If you eat two bites of something that tastes fabulous and you savor each one, you have gotten much more out of the price you payed, than if you distractedly or quickly stuff the whole thing into your mouth and finnish it off. So what if you throw some of it away! Wasn't it worth the flavor? Wasn't it worth the pleasant feeling you walked away with? Whyever would one pay to be made sick? WhyEver would you pay to be made SICK?
Another way in which the delusion that quantity = quality cheats people is the tendancy to be willing to spend more money on a number of small/trivial things than they would have spent on one 'large' purchace of something they really wanted. The appearance of 'low prices' distracts people from looking at how much they are actually spending, and the number of new things feels, in the moment, more satisfying, than only one new thing, regardless of how little importance those many things may actually have to them. Thus instead of getting what they want most, people settle for a bunch of things they only sort of want, and seem to think that this is better. In the mean time they continue to pine away for the 'big' things they actually want, whereas the small things they came home with would most likely have been forgotten in a couple of days if they had not bought them....and sometimes even if they did.
Some people take this moneysworth delusion even further by buying things that they would otherwise never have thought to buy, simply because they are on sale. They are tricked into thinking they are 'getting a good deal' when they are, in fact, completely throwing away their money.
As Sabrina says: "More isn't always better, Linus. Sometimes it's just more."
people are often befuddled by numbers or quantities into thinking that they need to get more in some physical ammount for the price they pay, when really they are cheating themselves.
Take Disneyland for example. The typical Disneyland experience usually encludes trying to do as many things as possible in the time that one has there so that you 'have gotten your money's worth' after paying for those expensive tickets. However, this approach usually makes people more stressed, more cranky, more prone to finding dissatisfaction in their experience, and much more tired and sore. It also probably distracts them from the details of their surroundings or the quality of the experience at hand, so that their sense of satisfaction comes not from the pleasant atmosphere, or the enjoyment of the rides and shows, or the sights and smells and tastes, but rather from being able to check so many things off the list.
• One can achieve the same feeling marking off a list of chores to do at home which costs nothing.
There is certainly a sense of satisfaction when one completes a number of things, but this is entirely a separate thing from the sense of satisfaction one is intended to experience from going to Disneyland. The music and landscaping are meant to create a pleasant atmosphere, one of both peace and joy. The rides are meant to bring up fond memories of movies and stories one loves, or to provide a thrill through speed and motions that one doesn't normally encounter. One is more likely to have a good time - a time that is enjoyable, uplifting, relaxing...in short an escape to a fantasy world, a retreat, if one is not fretting about how long things are taking or how many rides one has yet to check off the list. Why on earth would you pay to go be crabby stressed and resentfull?
People often approach situations in which they pay for something as though they are trying to get a toy out of a dog's mouth. There they are pulling and shaking and straining to get something back as the dog is clenching it's teeth and pulling and straining to keep it. In reality, you pay for something and it is given to you. Why strain as though you have to try and make something of it? Why not just recieve it? Why not focus on What, rather than How Much.
Take as another example: Eating Out. If you feel compelled to 'get your moneysworth' (yes I'm intentionally using it as one word) by eating every last scrap on your plate and having them bring extra bread too if it's not an additional charge, then you will end up feeling overstuffed and miserable, and furthermore that food will be contributing not so much to your health, but to your Unhealth. You have clearly not gotten a better value through eating too much. It is the enjoyment of the eating experience that makes the price worth it. If you eat two bites of something that tastes fabulous and you savor each one, you have gotten much more out of the price you payed, than if you distractedly or quickly stuff the whole thing into your mouth and finnish it off. So what if you throw some of it away! Wasn't it worth the flavor? Wasn't it worth the pleasant feeling you walked away with? Whyever would one pay to be made sick? WhyEver would you pay to be made SICK?
Another way in which the delusion that quantity = quality cheats people is the tendancy to be willing to spend more money on a number of small/trivial things than they would have spent on one 'large' purchace of something they really wanted. The appearance of 'low prices' distracts people from looking at how much they are actually spending, and the number of new things feels, in the moment, more satisfying, than only one new thing, regardless of how little importance those many things may actually have to them. Thus instead of getting what they want most, people settle for a bunch of things they only sort of want, and seem to think that this is better. In the mean time they continue to pine away for the 'big' things they actually want, whereas the small things they came home with would most likely have been forgotten in a couple of days if they had not bought them....and sometimes even if they did.
Some people take this moneysworth delusion even further by buying things that they would otherwise never have thought to buy, simply because they are on sale. They are tricked into thinking they are 'getting a good deal' when they are, in fact, completely throwing away their money.
As Sabrina says: "More isn't always better, Linus. Sometimes it's just more."
Monday, April 20, 2009
Alice in Wonderland
Very wise saying No. 2: Sugar is not the answer to lack of fulfillment and happiness.
Very wise saying No. 1: Shiney objects do not equal fulfillment and success.
*meanders off singing "I give to myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it..."*
(remember that song from Alice in Wonderland?)
Very wise saying No. 1: Shiney objects do not equal fulfillment and success.
*meanders off singing "I give to myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it..."*
(remember that song from Alice in Wonderland?)
Thursday, April 09, 2009
mmmmmmmm honey.....^_______^
sometimes I get cravings for honey. I think I'm like Pooh Bear in quite a few ways including a love for honey ^.^ I love to just sit with a jar of it and dip my fingers in and eat it plain like that, yummmm!
Thursday, March 05, 2009
somebody keeps sneeking an extra day into the week
I get done with wednesday....and low and behold it's wednesday again! bah! these weeks do seem to stretch ooooon so!
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Contemplations on a Theme of Science Fiction
I find it interesting that while our culture loves the idea of man ever bettering himself, of evolving to greater hights; the message that man has great potential which he is only just beginning to realise, very few people seem to be truely motivated by this idea.
Instead, by all appearances, the majority of people seem most content to be diverted from bordom by outside forces and thus bide their time in relative comfort and ignorance untill death.
Was this always so? Who is to say? For it seems only natural that we should hear of and have passed down to us the fruits of those who did not simply bide their time.
Today it seems that a mythical race called the 'Professionals' are expected to do all the great things, while everone else sits back and watches, never thinking they actually could be one of them.
If this idea of realising potential was truely a common value, then would not more people be ernestly seeking the improvement of themselves? Seeking to become more knowledgeable, more capable, more productive, more admirable?? It would seem that in many cases money and comfort are what is most sought after, not making the most of one's potential.
Perhaps this idea of man's potential is so apatizing because of a half realised feeling that we are not living up to it, or even as a way of comforting uneasiness with our intertia by saying 'but we have come so far already'.
I wonder if, when a person's world was smaller, when one didn't see himself as lost amongst the masses of people out there, it was perhaps just a little harder to put off one's own capbilities for another theoretical person out there to pick up the slack? I wonder if the very things which have brought about the idea of being a global society and thinking about mankind as a whole have allowed more individual worlds to be created.
Is the world big enough out there without you?
Or is the world so small that nothing matters more than dinner in 5 secconds so you don't miss the next program on the telly?
Where is the desire to learn? to create? to discover? to mature? to grow wise? to earn respect?
Where is the desire to experience? to LIVE!!!
(Disclaimer: I am no one to talk, indeed.
....perhaps more than some, but certainly much less than some. But it is a thought, and regretably it may turn out to be less unsettling than it should. Still..there it is.)
Instead, by all appearances, the majority of people seem most content to be diverted from bordom by outside forces and thus bide their time in relative comfort and ignorance untill death.
Was this always so? Who is to say? For it seems only natural that we should hear of and have passed down to us the fruits of those who did not simply bide their time.
Today it seems that a mythical race called the 'Professionals' are expected to do all the great things, while everone else sits back and watches, never thinking they actually could be one of them.
If this idea of realising potential was truely a common value, then would not more people be ernestly seeking the improvement of themselves? Seeking to become more knowledgeable, more capable, more productive, more admirable?? It would seem that in many cases money and comfort are what is most sought after, not making the most of one's potential.
Perhaps this idea of man's potential is so apatizing because of a half realised feeling that we are not living up to it, or even as a way of comforting uneasiness with our intertia by saying 'but we have come so far already'.
I wonder if, when a person's world was smaller, when one didn't see himself as lost amongst the masses of people out there, it was perhaps just a little harder to put off one's own capbilities for another theoretical person out there to pick up the slack? I wonder if the very things which have brought about the idea of being a global society and thinking about mankind as a whole have allowed more individual worlds to be created.
Is the world big enough out there without you?
Or is the world so small that nothing matters more than dinner in 5 secconds so you don't miss the next program on the telly?
Where is the desire to learn? to create? to discover? to mature? to grow wise? to earn respect?
Where is the desire to experience? to LIVE!!!
(Disclaimer: I am no one to talk, indeed.
....perhaps more than some, but certainly much less than some. But it is a thought, and regretably it may turn out to be less unsettling than it should. Still..there it is.)
Sunday, February 08, 2009
Love
take your focus and devote it completely to another
take your time and wait for someone
take your plans and form them with someone else's intrests in mind
take your money and spend it on someone else's desires
take your esteem and build up someone else's self-worth
take your knowledge and help someone else become competant
take your arms and make someone else feel secure with them
take your words and speak kindly to someone
take your confidence and believe in someone else
take your trust and honor someone with it
take your feelings and experience someone else's with them
take your reasoning and try to understand another's point of view
take your thoughts and focus them on the good things about someone
take your effort and apply it toward the well being of another
take your enthusiasm and draw another into joy
take your hand and hold someone else's
take your face and smile at someone
take your feet and go with someone
take your life and Love one another
take your time and wait for someone
take your plans and form them with someone else's intrests in mind
take your money and spend it on someone else's desires
take your esteem and build up someone else's self-worth
take your knowledge and help someone else become competant
take your arms and make someone else feel secure with them
take your words and speak kindly to someone
take your confidence and believe in someone else
take your trust and honor someone with it
take your feelings and experience someone else's with them
take your reasoning and try to understand another's point of view
take your thoughts and focus them on the good things about someone
take your effort and apply it toward the well being of another
take your enthusiasm and draw another into joy
take your hand and hold someone else's
take your face and smile at someone
take your feet and go with someone
take your life and Love one another
Saturday, January 31, 2009
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Thursday, January 29, 2009
a great cosmic question over a bedtime snack
Why do we like our salty foods crunchy, and our sweet foods soft?
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
wish list.......
So this is my list of things I'd like to eventually get along with some other things that would just be nice combined to make my 2008 Christmas List, and after discussing the matter with Marcy I decided to go ahead and make a blogpost of this for easy reference for anyone actually wanting to get me something but feeling at a loss. I've certainly been haveing trouble coming up with ideas for people myself this year, sigh...
Books
Eulalia
High Rhulain
Doomwyte
Brisinger
Dark Whispers - the third in the Unicorn Chronicles by Bruce Coville
Fabric Glossary - by Mary Humphries (4th edition)
The Anglo Files - Sarah Lyall
Beedle the Bard Collector's Edition (J.K.Rowling) - on Amazon
the new set of the Prydain Chronicles (Lloyd Alexander) the covers are so nice...and my current set doesn't match.
Cool Leather Journals: any of the celtic, dragon, or gryphon ones
Easton Press: Cinderella & Sleeping Beauty - my very favorite illustrator!!!! I want these sooo bad!
Easton Press: Andrew Lang's Fairy Books - I've been wanting to collect all of these ones, but the paperbacks aren't available thorugh the store anymore, and the leather ones are sooo nice! :D (of course) with colour pictures instead of the cheapy black and white copies of the coloured ones, heh......but I would be quite happy just to get the rest of the paperbacks --I've already got: pink, violet, brown, and orange (they are called 'the Violet Fairy Book', 'The Grey Fairy Book' etc.
Easton Press: Robin Hood - its green, it's robin hood, it's leather, of course I want it ;)
DVDs (wisdescreen of course)
James Bond ultimate collector's set
Trigun box set
Five Mile Creek box set
Castle in the Sky
Prince Caspian
Jim Hensons The Story Teller: Greek Myths
CDs
Indiana Jones: The Soundtracks Collection (all four in a box set!)
A Midwinter Night's Dream - Loreena McKennit
And Winter Came - Enya
ET soundtrack
A&E Pride and Predjudice Soundtrack (I've already got the one from the recent movie)
something by Rachmaninov or Tchaikovsky (I have all his ballets)
Other
herb growing starter
prints from my DeviantArt wishlist (I like the 4x6 or 5x7 sizes, not the big ones)
large candles - preferably little or no scent - or vanilla
carved wooden candlesticks or candle lanturns
Fellowship Foundry stuff
castle swtichplate
celtic swtichplate
'classic dragon' goblet or 'dragon demi-goblet' (I like the smooth top option, which is also cheaper)
Leather shoes:
'two button gypsy' I like the one pictured there in dark and light brown
Stuff from The Noble Collection
--Harry Potter--
time turner necklace - gold
hermione's wand
godrics sword
hogwarts writing quill
mirror of erised
hogwarts house pins - well really I just wnat gryffindor, but it dosesn't look to come separate, sigh
gryffindor mug
--LOTR--
lothlorien candle holder
theoden's sword
galadriel's ring
elven brooch
arwen butterfly ring
middle-earth goblet
arwen butterfly brooch
phial of galadriel
--the noble collection stuff--
snowflake pendant
renaissance celestial armillary
mariners hourglass
constellation draco compas
Teas
Mighty-Leaf: vanilla bean (my very favorite tea ever)
Teaforte - I like black and chai teas: earl grey, bombay chai, vienna cinamon, orchid vanilla, forte, ginger, winter chai
Harney & Sons : Yellow and Blue (chamomile lavendar), Vanilla Comoro (decaf vanilla - it doesn't taste decaf though), and Winter White Earl Grey. These are being discontinued I think and are on sale - I want to get them while I still can because they are among my very favorites!
Spice Traders Teas: vanilla, jasmine, licorice spice
clear glass tea pot - on the smaller side, something good for one person
pretty mug or teacup
Electronics
good speakers - preferably with cords that connect on both ends so they could be replaced later if the cord goes without having to buy new spakers
digital slr camera - so I could focus myself - & marco lense -- I think I'd prefer a cannon
Home Decor stuff
nice dark wood standing coat/hat rack
Wooden Screen from Cost Plust World Market: Kashmir-Screen (the have a couple other modles I like, but they don't have them on their website)
Places I can always use gift cards
amazon.com
Jo-Annes
B&N
Target
Starbucks
iTunes
Books
Eulalia
High Rhulain
Doomwyte
Brisinger
Dark Whispers - the third in the Unicorn Chronicles by Bruce Coville
Fabric Glossary - by Mary Humphries (4th edition)
The Anglo Files - Sarah Lyall
Beedle the Bard Collector's Edition (J.K.Rowling) - on Amazon
the new set of the Prydain Chronicles (Lloyd Alexander) the covers are so nice...and my current set doesn't match.
Cool Leather Journals: any of the celtic, dragon, or gryphon ones
Easton Press: Cinderella & Sleeping Beauty - my very favorite illustrator!!!! I want these sooo bad!
Easton Press: Andrew Lang's Fairy Books - I've been wanting to collect all of these ones, but the paperbacks aren't available thorugh the store anymore, and the leather ones are sooo nice! :D (of course) with colour pictures instead of the cheapy black and white copies of the coloured ones, heh......but I would be quite happy just to get the rest of the paperbacks --I've already got: pink, violet, brown, and orange (they are called 'the Violet Fairy Book', 'The Grey Fairy Book' etc.
Easton Press: Robin Hood - its green, it's robin hood, it's leather, of course I want it ;)
DVDs (wisdescreen of course)
James Bond ultimate collector's set
Trigun box set
Five Mile Creek box set
Castle in the Sky
Prince Caspian
Jim Hensons The Story Teller: Greek Myths
CDs
Indiana Jones: The Soundtracks Collection (all four in a box set!)
A Midwinter Night's Dream - Loreena McKennit
And Winter Came - Enya
ET soundtrack
A&E Pride and Predjudice Soundtrack (I've already got the one from the recent movie)
something by Rachmaninov or Tchaikovsky (I have all his ballets)
Other
herb growing starter
prints from my DeviantArt wishlist (I like the 4x6 or 5x7 sizes, not the big ones)
large candles - preferably little or no scent - or vanilla
carved wooden candlesticks or candle lanturns
Fellowship Foundry stuff
castle swtichplate
celtic swtichplate
'classic dragon' goblet or 'dragon demi-goblet' (I like the smooth top option, which is also cheaper)
Leather shoes:
'two button gypsy' I like the one pictured there in dark and light brown
Stuff from The Noble Collection
--Harry Potter--
time turner necklace - gold
hermione's wand
godrics sword
hogwarts writing quill
mirror of erised
hogwarts house pins - well really I just wnat gryffindor, but it dosesn't look to come separate, sigh
gryffindor mug
--LOTR--
lothlorien candle holder
theoden's sword
galadriel's ring
elven brooch
arwen butterfly ring
middle-earth goblet
arwen butterfly brooch
phial of galadriel
--the noble collection stuff--
snowflake pendant
renaissance celestial armillary
mariners hourglass
constellation draco compas
Teas
Mighty-Leaf: vanilla bean (my very favorite tea ever)
Teaforte - I like black and chai teas: earl grey, bombay chai, vienna cinamon, orchid vanilla, forte, ginger, winter chai
Harney & Sons : Yellow and Blue (chamomile lavendar), Vanilla Comoro (decaf vanilla - it doesn't taste decaf though), and Winter White Earl Grey. These are being discontinued I think and are on sale - I want to get them while I still can because they are among my very favorites!
Spice Traders Teas: vanilla, jasmine, licorice spice
clear glass tea pot - on the smaller side, something good for one person
pretty mug or teacup
Electronics
good speakers - preferably with cords that connect on both ends so they could be replaced later if the cord goes without having to buy new spakers
digital slr camera - so I could focus myself - & marco lense -- I think I'd prefer a cannon
Home Decor stuff
nice dark wood standing coat/hat rack
Wooden Screen from Cost Plust World Market: Kashmir-Screen (the have a couple other modles I like, but they don't have them on their website)
Places I can always use gift cards
amazon.com
Jo-Annes
B&N
Target
Starbucks
iTunes
Monday, November 03, 2008
Abundance
I am so blessed, so rich, so full, so surrounded by abundance. Even though all my ife I have lived under the shaddow of 'financial problems' I have always been amply provided for, even my wants have been greatly satisfied. Truely 'my cup runneth over'. Thus for God's provision and lavish generosity I give Him thanks!
Saturday, October 04, 2008
a beautifull day in the neighborhood
It is such a lovely day out! ...all cool and cloudy and there's the scent of rain in the air! :D
feeling beautifull
isn't it nice, those moments when you just feel lovely....not necessarily when you feel like others think you are, but when you in your own experience of yourself just feel lovely ^.^ .....this evening laying here on my stomach on the floor with my hair falling all around me and draping across my back, with my computer and the music playing, I just feeeel beautifull. If I had a mirror right now it is quite likely I wouldn't think I looked especially lovely, but I don't have one, and I am savoring the sensation.
hmmmm....you know I think there is a great deal of attractiveness that comes from how we feel about ourselves.....are we able to really feel beautifull? Just as some people seem to be able to really 'make' an outfit which someone else would just look silly in because they have the poise and confidence and a kind of personality mesh with the outfit, so i think we can make whatever features we have glow at times when we're feeling particularly comfortable and happy within ourselves.
hmmmm....you know I think there is a great deal of attractiveness that comes from how we feel about ourselves.....are we able to really feel beautifull? Just as some people seem to be able to really 'make' an outfit which someone else would just look silly in because they have the poise and confidence and a kind of personality mesh with the outfit, so i think we can make whatever features we have glow at times when we're feeling particularly comfortable and happy within ourselves.
Friday, September 19, 2008
I Love Lewis!
While reading merely the first two pages of An Experiment in Criticism I have already felt my heart swell, squealed with delight, and clapped my hands in enthusiastic agreement with this kindred spirit. It's lovely to be struck once again with the reasons he is my favorite author =D
Divine Fashion Advice
Don't wear the pink butterfly jacket with that red shirt
This morning when I was about to leave I went to grab the sweatshirt I normally wear on my morning walk which has a sort of pinkish lacy butterfly appliqued to the front btu I couldn't find it anywheres. It's my favorite sweatshirt so I was a bit worried that it's lost, but I didn't have time to fuss and just grabbed a plain velour black one with a starshaped zipperpull. Once I got to work and actually looked at myself in the mirror in the bathroom I realised that I looked so cute in the black with the bit of red showing around the waist and where the zipper wasn't closed up all the way - it looked like a perfectly designed outfit and I had jsut been grabbing whatever I could find off the top of the pile, heh. I'm not glad about the sweatshirt missing, but hey thanks God for the great fashion direction, teehee ;)
This morning when I was about to leave I went to grab the sweatshirt I normally wear on my morning walk which has a sort of pinkish lacy butterfly appliqued to the front btu I couldn't find it anywheres. It's my favorite sweatshirt so I was a bit worried that it's lost, but I didn't have time to fuss and just grabbed a plain velour black one with a starshaped zipperpull. Once I got to work and actually looked at myself in the mirror in the bathroom I realised that I looked so cute in the black with the bit of red showing around the waist and where the zipper wasn't closed up all the way - it looked like a perfectly designed outfit and I had jsut been grabbing whatever I could find off the top of the pile, heh. I'm not glad about the sweatshirt missing, but hey thanks God for the great fashion direction, teehee ;)
Saturday, August 09, 2008
wait what?!
how did I end up with a full screen version of AOTC?!? I mean, sure I hated that movie, but how can my set be complete when one of the members is a full screen version?! what little is worthwhile in this thing requires the widescreen view! The fact that I probably spent money on the full screen is what kills me =( heh
Monday, August 04, 2008
cullinary brilliancey =D
*crazed ice-cream rimmed smile*
Spiced Ice-cream
it should be a regular flavor
yes yes indeed it should!
as should creamed honey be a regular topping
aye, some of the tastiest stuff I've ever put together that!
A few days ago I came upon this brilliant idea while on vacation, visiting Marcusstratus from deviantart and his mum in the fair town of Huntsville, Utah. We had Breyer's all natural vanilla (the only vanilla ice-cream worth having, unless of course it's home-made) and as we sat around the table preparing our dessert it struck me that this stuff would taste simply fantastic with cinnamon, nutmeg (which they had freshly ground!), and cloves -- rather like eggnog actually with those flavors.
And then! it came to me that the cinamon-creamed-honey we had there would be quite nice drizzled on top - which, indeed, it proved to be. And when I later tried this recipe again I added pieces of walnuts which were delish with it as well.....and I suppose that pecans would also be as tastey.
mmmm.......... so yes! as I am enjoying once again this marvelous concoction I would love to share it with you all =D
Spiced Ice-cream
it should be a regular flavor
yes yes indeed it should!
as should creamed honey be a regular topping
aye, some of the tastiest stuff I've ever put together that!
A few days ago I came upon this brilliant idea while on vacation, visiting Marcusstratus from deviantart and his mum in the fair town of Huntsville, Utah. We had Breyer's all natural vanilla (the only vanilla ice-cream worth having, unless of course it's home-made) and as we sat around the table preparing our dessert it struck me that this stuff would taste simply fantastic with cinnamon, nutmeg (which they had freshly ground!), and cloves -- rather like eggnog actually with those flavors.
And then! it came to me that the cinamon-creamed-honey we had there would be quite nice drizzled on top - which, indeed, it proved to be. And when I later tried this recipe again I added pieces of walnuts which were delish with it as well.....and I suppose that pecans would also be as tastey.
mmmm.......... so yes! as I am enjoying once again this marvelous concoction I would love to share it with you all =D
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Sunlight Mainfested as Wings
There have been a lot of moths in the park of late and one afternoon they were al glimmering in the light slanting through the trees and it was so beautiful; one of those magical moments when it seems like the earth is singing! =)
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